I've been going through some sort of rough patch right now. I wouldn't exactly say it's one of those life-altering moments, but it's certainly a time when I need to just learn who I am. Yes, surprise, surprise! 23-years-old, and still no clue as to what it REALLY means to be me. One of my closest and dearest friends suggested that I write things out in order to try to work some sense into it all (the choice of making these thoughts public, though, was entirely my decision.) So I remembered my handy dandy journal (technically, it's a blog, I KNOW, but for the sake of argument, let's call it a journal!)
Some of my thoughts:
1. Life is like a chemical formula. 2 H + O --> H2O (I guess I still remember my Pre-Med days.) In order for things to work, you must figure out exactly what and how many elements you need, as well as how many atoms of each would lead to the balancing of the formula. In other words, as human beings we evolve... we change... we come to be more comfortable in our skin... we meet new people... we lose contact with those that were once key players in our life... but in the end, we (by ourselves) must figure out what we truly want (and most importantly need) in our lives. People, dreams, and things come and go everyday... So we mustn't hold on so tightly to what surrounds us. However, if these people, dreams, and things want to hold on to you, then by all means let them. =)
2. Labels aren't important. And I'm not talking about clothing labels! (Although, despite being a D&G girl myself, would say that they really aren't, either.) It's completely normal for us to try to classify the unknown into one of the categories that we've already embedded into our brains. For instance, you meet a new person, and you instantly try to identify what "type" of individual they are. In the last year, I've come to know (and stop knowing, for that matter) people who I couldn't "figure out" for the life of me. Shy/outgoing, gay/straight, boyfriends/girlfriends, interested/not interested, smart/dumb, weird/normal... and the list goes on... You might argue that knowing what type of person someone is might help you to deal with them, to interact with them. But to be honest, at the end of the day... it doesn't matter. The only thing that TRULY matters is that there must be mutual respect, admiration, and amicability. The rest will just have a way of working itself out.
3. You think YOU are UNIQUE. Well, so do I. DEAL WITH IT. Most of us think we're the most fabulous thing to walk the face of this Earth at some point of our lives. Face the fact that there are over 6 billions humans living along with us, and that just as we're better than some at some things, some are better than us, too. One of the hardest lessons that I've learned (and I'm still trying to FULLY assimilate this one) is that by comparing yourself to others, you just hurt yourself. You are unique, but so is the person next to you. Therefore, there's no point in comparing yourself to that person.
4. People ARE shallow. Again, DEAL WITH IT. The fashion and entertainment industries are based on looks. Agreed? Yes! And these industries are worth billions and billions of dollars. Conclusion, looks are important. There's not much to say here, except... don't put yourself down for the way you look (and this is related to #3.) Although looks are quite important, the way you carry yourself and how you project yourself through life is very important. Wear a smile, and don't over think things. Always try to be your best, but don't be so hard on yourself... If you don't like something about yourself, well, by all means try to change it. Just don't lose yourself in the process. Whatever rocks your boat...
5. There is no sense or logic in love. Even though someone might think of you as the perfect human being, it will not mean that the person will love you, at least not the way you want them to. Yes, hard lesson learned TIME and TIME again. This is like the story of my life! Does it hurt? Hell, yes! Are you ever immune to it? Oh, no. You think you've learned your lesson, but before you know it, you're doing the same thing again. Do you learn how to move on? Yea, it takes time, and quite a few tears, but at least you should try to tell yourself that you're trying...
6. (Borrowed from somewhere) Never try to live without something (or someone) that you can't spend an entire day without thinking about. Next time you find yourself thinking constantly about someone, see this as big sign (with neon flashlights and everything.) It might not mean anything, just affection; or it might mean everything. Just don't deprive yourself of the people you love. Life is too short to play games. Yes, games are fun from time to time, but not when it really matters.
(...to be continued... I'm sleepy...)
