31/07/2012

The moment I knew it was futile to fight against my feelings was when he said, "I want to know everything about you. Your dreams, your fantasies, your fears, all your random thoughts. Absolutely everything that goes on in that pretty little head of yours." And bam! That was it. I was completely gone. Too bad it ended up being just empty words. Although spoken under what pretext, I still don't know (nor do I care at this point.) Either way, my mercurial brain will always hold the keys to my heart. 

30/07/2012

And with every dream, with every waking thought, I keep burying myself in a mountain of false hope, of unfounded expectations... 

And the truth is that I don't care... we all have different ways of coping with our realities; we all have things that make us want to live, things that keep us alive...

18 Day Music Lyrics Challenge - Day 2

Day 2 - Describe your best friend

I guess that I'm specially lucky because I have several best friends, all spread out in the world. I feel that I can trust each one of them blindly, so that's why I chose lyrics from "Never let me go."

"And it's breaking over me

A thousand miles down to the sea bed

Found the place to rest my head

Never let me go"

18 Day Music Lyrics Challenge - Day 1

Day 1 - Describe how you feel today.

From "You've got the love," by Florence + the Machine...

Time after time I think "Oh Lord what's the use?"

Time after time I think it's just no good

Sooner or later in life, the things you love you lose

New Challenge!

I'm bored, so I decided that it's time for another challenge! This one is called the "18 Day Music Lyrics Challenge." For those who are curious, or want to join along, the rules are simple, you can only answer the following questions with lyrics from one band. I pick: Florence and the Machine. 

1. Describe how you feel today.
2. Describe your best friend.
3. How many times have you been rejected?
4. Tell us the “story of your life”.
5. How do you act when you are around somebody you like?
6. What did you do today?
7. What has been the craziest thing you have ever done?
8. Describe your favorite concert.
9. Describe how you react when you hear your favorite song on the radio.
10. How many siblings do you have.
11. Complete: I am addicted to _____________
12. Complete: My favorite singer makes me ______________
13. How many people have you kissed in your life?
14. How do you feel about drugs?
15. Complete: I constantly _______
16. Complete: I am _________
17. When people wake you up in the middle of the night you? (what do you do) ________
18. Describe your favorite movie.

Soundtrack of my life (so far)

26 songs for my 26 years... If I had to pick the soundtrack of my life up to this point, this is what it would look like. Sure, it's mostly pop songs, but hey - any romantic comedy has mostly pop songs in its soundtrack, no? (And yes, I think my life would make a great romantic comedy! lol) Most of these songs remind me of specific people (who are or were important to me), some remind me of places (where I've lived or have traveled to), and a few remind me of particular time periods. Let's see how well you know me, eh? Can you guess who/where/when? hehehe

Ace of Base – The Sign

Erasure – A little respect

Jakaranda – Never let you go 

Louis Armstrong – What a wonderful world 

The Wallflowers – One Headlight 

Right Said Fred – I’m too sexy

Backstreet Boys - Bigger

Steve Vai - Principessa

Juanes – Nada valgo sin tu amor

Muse – Bliss

Wise – Thinking of you

Kobukuro – Towa ni tomo ni

Arashi – Happiness

Stanfour – In your arms

Ayumi Hamasaki – Days

Carla Bruni – Quelqu’un m’a dit

Andrea Bocelli – La voce del silenzio

Michael Buble - Everything

3OH!3 – Touchin’ on my

The Temper Trap – Sweet Disposition

Lady Gaga – The Edge of Glory

David Guetta feat. Sia  - Titanium

Benny Benassi – Cinema (Skrillex remix) 

Arisa – La notte

Subsonica – Incantevole 

Giorgia feat. Eros Ramazzotti - Inevitabile

Thoughts on people...

I have been fortunate enough to have had the possibility to meet people from all walks of life. My dreams and ambitions have taken me to very different parts of the world, where I have been blessed to meet wonderful individuals who, for whatever reason, have opened their homes and hearts to me. All of these people have been completely unique, and yet at the end of the day, they all have something in common. Something that they share with me, you, and everyone else on this planet. As different as all of our lives may be, we’re all just seeking to find company, to be heard, to be loved, to be understood.

This isn’t meant to be taken as some form as an excuse for who I am, or how I treat others, but circumstances in my life had led me to be very wary of others. In general, I’ve learned to be fearful of males (not really being myself around them) because I fear rejection, and I’m also careful with other females because I’ve experienced firsthand how competitive and cruel we can be. Also, as hard as it is to admit this, I tend to think that people approach me because they have a hidden agenda, because they want something from me. I know this is something I have to work on, and trust me; I have been trying to let all these thoughts go. Eventually…

Trips are meant to open our eyes, to help us experience things that we wouldn’t normally experience if we stayed in our corners of the world. And as my Italian adventure is drawing to a close, I have to say that I’ve learned a lot about human interactions. There are selfish and evil people out there. That’s just the way it is. There are people who will pretend to be your friends, who will try to become intimate with you, but at the first moment of difficulty, will leave you stranded and feeling even more alone than before. Sometimes, it just happens that the people who you think are the closest to you (and who you believe have your best interest at heart) are the ones who treat you in ways that you don’t deserve to be treated. There are also times when life will lead you in opposite directions from the people you love. And as hard as it is to say goodbye, sometimes you just have to accept it and believe that it’s for the best. However, there are also other people who will be kind to you for no reason at all. There are people who you may be afraid of trusting, afraid of letting into your life, but that at the end of the day, will become individuals who you want in your life forever. More than anything else, I’ve learned to accept that life works in mysterious ways. We can never really tell how a certain person's absence or presence in our lives will affect us. I’ve once heard that people come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime, and now more than I ever; I feel that this is true.