Things aren't always so peachy in the Kingdom of Bandy. The truth is, these last couple of days have been somewhat difficult. For one reason or another, I've been throwing myself a pity party, and I'm done. I am DONE! My life is what it is because I have chosen it to be that way. I chose what I studied at university, I chose to come back to Honduras, I chose the people that are in my life (or not in it), etc.
As the adult that I know I can be, I've reached a point where I'm done with feeling sorry for myself. There is nothing wrong with my life. In fact, many people would kill to be in my shoes right now. Yet, I keep on lamenting myself for what could've been but isn't, or I keep on living in the future, imagining what my life WILL be like 5, 10 years from now. As great as it is to have ambitions, the truth is I've never been good at living in the "NOW." And let me tell you my friends, that is no way to live.
Someone once said, "If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down." And this is the moment in which I pick myself up and start to live in the now. This is the moment in which I choose to fight for myself.
What does that mean, exactly? I have no idea. As I said before, I've never been very good at shutting my brain off and just enjoying the moment. But, for my own sanity, it must be done. I guess it means that the hour that I'll spend working out will just be me working out, listening to music, feeling my muscles move in conjunction with my bones, and not me trying to devise a plan to lose 30 pounds in the next 3 months. With that said, I've created a "Remix playlist," featuring only (you guessed it) remixes of some of my favorite workout songs. It's very high energy and really pumps me up, so I encourage y'all to download the songs and add them to your own playlist.
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