Day 21

60 Day Picture Challenge - Day 21: A picture of something you wish you could forget.

There is something, or rather someone, that I'd like to forget. However, I will not mention his name nor will include his picture in this post because: 1) I deleted all the pictures I had of him on my computer; 2) I fear that mentioning him or posting his picture would only help to further enlarge his ego, wish I have no wish of doing (although I'm aware that just talking about him may have such an effect), 3) Despite everything that happened between us, I feel that I stopped having the right to use his picture the moment I walked out of his life (I know I don't owe him anything, but I always treat people the way I'd like to be treated.)

In any case, the individual I'd like to forget is someone who I've tried really hard to stop thinking about, but for some odd reason, keeps on popping back into my head every so often. He and I were quite similar in many ways and so, I think that it's been hard to forget about him because our lives and ways of thinking were always overlapping. We enjoyed many of the same things, had many similar interests, etc. He was once a close friend who I cared about tremendously, and I sincerely thought the feelings were mutual. However, certain situations and circumstances allowed me to realize that although he might've cared about me to a certain degree, he never really had my best interests in mind, and as such, our friendship became "compromised." I may be lacking in many things, but one thing that I do have is pride, and I know when I have to stand up for myself, which I eventually did, leading to a fallout between us. The truth is, I expected a bit more of a reaction from him. When you claim that you "need" someone in your life, you just don't let them go that easily. But, I digress. The point is, I invested a lot in that friendship/ relationship/ fiasco. So much so, that now all I want to do is forget. At least about the bad parts. I think that people come into our lives for a reason, and although I'm not sure what purpose my meeting him had, I truly wish I could only remember the good times we shared.

Now, you might be wondering why I selected the picture I did. Well, I selected a picture of Hugh Laurie playing a "fop." UrbanDictionary.com defines the term fop as: "a 19th century-ish term for what is basically a metrosexual. A dandy, if you will. Usually high-cultured, well-dressed, very social individual who enjoys fashion and parties and prissy things like that. Perfect personal hygiene. NOT always gay, though often so. Often cannot actually afford this expensive, high-class lifestyle but somehow tries to live it anyway." One of our nicknames for the individual in question was fop, and so I thought this picture was an appropriate substitute.

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 21: A song that you listen to when you're happy.

I believe this is the second or third day during the challenge that I post a Gaga song. What can I say? She's got my back! I just love Bad Romance and I've never hidden the fact that it's one of my favorite songs of all time. I remember the day I first heard it as if it were yesterday, and I recall having it on repeat for a good 3 hours. So yea, I'm always playing this song, particularly when I'm in a good mood.